Ahhh...sleep. My entire life I have used sleep as an escape from stress, worry, depression, and anxiety. It was a safe and comfortable place. Lately, though, that's all changed. For several months now I've had dreams disturbing my once comfortable place.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not talking about nightmares; nothing frightening. Just dreams dealing with people I knew 30 years ago. Yes, thirty! 3-0. I'd like to think I'm too young to have dreams dealing with things from thirty years ago, but hey, that's another blog entry!
No, these dreams are often in current, real-time settings, but once I'm awake, I find myself drifting back to difficult and painful times.
The dreams are vivid and detailed with the same main characters but a variety of story lines. People important to me for a season, little more. So why are they back now? This occurs a few times each week. There are times I even awake from a dream, get up, use the restroom, go back to bed, and the same people will be back in a continuation of the previous dream or in a new setting.
Once up for the day, the dreams stay with me - almost like a physical thing carried around with me. They can feel so real that they seem more like something that actually happened than something that was only in my dreams.
I'm perplexed. I'd like my peaceful sleep back. I'd like nutty, wacky dreams back. Silly, crazy ones - or at least ones that I don't remember when I wake up.
I love my life. I have good friends and am blessed to be making new ones. My family is wonderful and I'm very happy where I am.
So, dreams, go away. It's Christmas and there's much to be done!
Sweet Dreams, Everyone!
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