Lest anyone think I'm casting my concerns on others, this is only a reflection of where my heart is at the moment.
Yes, just living this life...Sometimes reactively, sometimes proactively, sometimes with wisdom, but oftentimes not. Just living each day.
We have to be careful we don't let our schedules get away from us. I truly believe our busy lifestyles are a modern-day curse for families. We need to focus on doing less for our children and more with them. More dinners together at home, time for board games and hot cocoa. Time to discuss school and not always doing school. That's a tough one for a homeschooling family, believe me.
A family in our local homeschool group lost their husband/father yesterday. No warning. No goodbyes. Wife and young children suddenly alone. This touched and frightened me tremendously. I ache for this family. In all honesty, I also give a prayer of thanks that it wasn't my husband, my life, my children suddenly without their father. I want to hold them all a little closer today. Keep a keener eye on, well, everything.
The urge to hold everyone smotheringly close is real but has to be resisted. I know we can't live this way. It wouldn't matter even if we did. Hold sand in a tight-fisted grip and see how much seeps out anyway. Hold it open-palmed, gently, and it stays put.
Tonight I'll see my grandson for the first time in months. He's 4-years old. I hate how much of his life we're missing, but know there's nothing I can do about it. Texas is a long way away. You know I'll hold him extra-close tonight - if only for a moment or two. Four-year olds are really squirmy - the tighter you hold them the more they squirm.
Oops...time to go get Christopher from his youth-group meeting. I'm anxious to hear all about his evening. Can't ever be too busy for that.
G'night.
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